Thoughts on Language

The thought was nice.

The thought was nice.

I’d like to start out by saying thank you! Your comments and emails mean so much to me! I’m glad you guys are enjoying reading my posts as much as I’m enjoying writing them. This blog has become my journal and I’m writing more than I thought I would be. You guys are the best!

I’ve decided that language is just about the most interesting, complex, crazy, fluid, etc. etc. etc. way of human interaction ever to be. Take this, for example. I haven’t been speaking a lot of English here (or Portuguese really, staying silent is my strong suit) but when I have been I’ve adopted a more English accent than an American one. That’s because all of my exchange friends learned the Queen’s English, being from Europe. It fades whenever I talk to Haven, who is from California, or my parents, or just people from Brazil who are asking me the pronunciation of a certain word for English class or something.

I’ve also decided that knowing Spanish is the best thing that’s ever happened to me when I decided to move to a country in which Portuguese is the official language. I had the very idiotic idea of that “I’ll just pick it up, that’s what I did with Spanish in Mexico,” but then when I moved here I realized that in Colorado, before moving to Mexico, I had actually been exposed to a lot of Spanish and at least knew what the words were for the various tenses. (Ex. I, you, him, etc.) And then I came to Brazil and didn’t know what the words were for I and you and us and realized just how stupid I had been. Now I know these words, because they are very helpful whenever you want to speak any sentence ever.

Anyways, Spanish is so helpful because I understand so much of what I hear. I can’t always form a reply, but I at least understand the question. Many of the words are the same, just pronounced differently, or at the very least, the words are very similar. Of course, there are words that have absolutely no connection to each other, but because the brain is such a lovely thing and should never be underestimated, it just clicks that that word means this.IMG_3318

It’s really hard to explain how everything is just starting to fall in place. I can speak in baby sentences and basically only in present tense and I have to stop and ask for words but I am speaking and understanding Portuguese. I hear things, and they just magically make sense.

Spanish is also such a curse since I rely too much on it at times when it can be completely different in every possible way from Portuguese.

Again, not sure how much sense I am making here since you guys aren’t experiencing what I’m hearing. On one hand, I feel like my Spanish has never been as good as it was when I was leaving Mexico, and on the other hand, I feel that if I went to Mexico right now I would start speaking in Portuguese to anyone who talked to me. They are so similar and yet so different that I can’t make sense in my head of what is what anymore. So that’s where I will leave you.

Seventeen Days


IMG_3232 (1)I have been in Brazil for seventeen days today! It feels like a century. When I come home I fall into bed and sleep and then I can’t remember what happened the previous day even though everything and then some happened. I could say that four million more times but it wouldn’t make it any less true.

Virna’s daughter came in town from São Paulo with a friend of hers to take a test to be a judge. I met her on Friday, and then again on Saturday when I went to lunch with Virna’s family. Virna has an incredibly smart family. Virna herself is a lawyer and works for some sector of the government.

Her youngest daughter, Livia, is a lawyer, studying to be a judge.

Her oldest daughter has a pretty interesting story. She was a Rotary exchange student like myself when she was sixteen and went to Germany. When her year was over, she decided that she wanted to stay in Germany since the education system is better (or something, I didn’t completely understand) and took a language proficiency test, passed, and now has dual citizenship in Germany and Brazil. She’s lived in Berlin ever since, and is now a doctor.

Virna’s niece, Natalia, is a lawyer and currently studying for her masters in law. She has a boyfriend who she will probably marry in the next year (I’m not certain about this, but that’s what Virna told me. She also told me that nobody really knows but it’s basically expected that they will marry soon since they have been talking about it forever.) The boyfriend is a doctor who is specializing in gynecology.

Virna’s boyfriend has been interviewed for a published article in the New York Times and is a sociologist.

And those are the only people I have asked about.

Anyways, before we went to lunch on Saturday, Virna, Viveca, and I went to a park where there was some kind of fitness festival and dance party. Viveca is Virna’s older sister. It was in a park that was kind of outside of the city and has a huge observatory that you can go into to see a view of the city. Unfortunately, the observatory was closed, but you can still get pretty high up and have an incredible view.

The dance party was kind of cool to watch, but really hard to dance in if you haven’t grown up with these dances since you can walk. I mostly watched. They all know the moves to the dances like we know the steps to the Electric Slide or the Cupid Shuffle, except these dances were WAY harder and a lot less intuitive. Also, they had a kind of different dance for every different song, but there were two people in the front demonstrating, and then people caught on. My favorite part was when Uptown Funk by Bruno Mars came on and everyone went crazy and danced their hearts out. It was really fun to watch.

After the fitness festival turned dance party, we went to lunch on Saturday with the family. Lunch is the meal that everyone meets together, comparable to dinner in the United States. This time lunch was at my host-grandmother’s apartment. Before it has been at my aunt’s apartment, and in various restaurants during the week. Natalia speaks pretty excellent English, but for the most part I just hang around and listen. These lunches are fun even though I don’t understand a lot of what they are saying. It reminded me of the Montgomery family, because they got into some heated debate regarding law and the government. That’s about all I could understand from what they were saying. Sometimes they stop to tell me the bare bones of what is happening, but that it isn’t often. I still wasn’t bored, though.

After the meal, I met the husband of Virna’s mother (I’m going to call her my grandmother since it’s easier). He is 95 years old, while my grandmother is in her late seventies. They have been married for fifty some years though. He is not the father of Virna and Viveca (Virna’s sister) because their biological father died when they were very young. But, for all intents and purposes, he is the grandfather. He mainly sleeps all day in the bedroom, and everyone goes to say hi/goodbye to him when they are getting ready to leave.

He is funny since I can’t understand what he is saying due to some slurred and mangled Portuguese, but he mentions Obama every time I see him and can’t remember that we have met before.

Speaking of President Obama, he is loved loved loved by the people here. They all mention him when I say I am from the United States. It makes my Democratic party soul sing because they love Obama more than the average person I meet on the streets in the United States. I had to move to a different country to find people who like my president. (I also went to a high school that had a mainly conservative student population, so I’m a bit biased.) They tell me that Obama is better than their president. My classmates were telling me a bit about the corruption in Brazilian politics, and the first thing they said was, “Our president is corrupt. Not like Obama. Obama is good.” Also, everyone seems so relieved that I am also a supporter of Obama since they know how divided American politics can be.

We talk to the grandfather, and then we said goodbye to each other. Brazilian goodbyes remind me of Montgomery goodbyes since everyone announces that they are leaving, and then we all hug and kiss each other, and then we drink another coffee and have another conversation, and then we hug and kiss each other again, and then we finally leave.

Instead of leaving completely, though, Virna and I just went down a few floors to Viveca’s apartment and watched Netflix and drank more coffee and coke and wine. It was fun. The shows are in English with Brazilian subtitles.

Chen’s birthday was on Sunday, and he threw a party. However, nobody knew what time the party was. Chen is the exchange student from Taiwan. Regarding the fact that nobody knew what time his party was, I must tell you that that is so typically Brazilian that you don’t even realize how normal it is. The eight exchange students have a Whatsapp message group, and yet two of us missed the memo that the party started at eleven am, not three pm.

Claire and Virna having some coconut water.

Claire and Virna having some coconut water.

Because I thought the party started at three instead of eleven, Virna, my grandmother, Viveca, and I all went to Ponta Negra beach, which is just on the other side of the city from where we live. That’s where I went Paddleboarding last weekend. We sat in some chairs along the ocean and drank coconut water and they ordered some food for lunch. However, the fish was bad. I’m not exactly sure how Virna could tell since it was fried, but regardless, the fish was bad. Apparently it is illegal to cook directly on the beach, and when Virna asked where the food was coming from, they told her a different restaurant every time she asked. So she refused to eat the fish and Viveca and Virna and some guy had a very loud and angry conversation about it. Virna was really mad since she still had to pay for the food even though it wasn’t good food in her opinion. I have no idea if this is true or not, but I’m guessing it is, since everyone has told me to be wary about the food you eat on the beach and to always ask about it before you order.

Then we went to a different restaurant on the complete opposite side of the town, and after we had finished eating, Natalia showed up and started eating too. We talked and hung out with her. During lunch, Viveca and Virna were talking about the education system in Brazil, again reminding me of the Montgomery family. The students here in Brazil do not write at all. All of their tests involve multiple choice and the classes are simply lecture with no work attached with the exception of math. They don’t learn critical reasoning. They don’t have to defend their thinking by writing essays. Virna and Viveca told me during lunch that they also don’t learn about personal health and government, even though there are history and geography classes. This is not the case in Brazil. All of the classes they take lead up to a test that they take when they graduate. The test determines whether they are accepted into university or not. While I’m not sure which system is better, I do think that critical thinking is a skill that is needed if you ever want anyone to make informed choices on voting, the government, etc. In the state of Colorado, it is mandatory for every high school student to take a health class and Colorado government in order to graduate.

IMG_3235 (1)During the lunch, someone called Virna and told her that Chen’s party had actually started at eleven, but they hadn’t done the cake yet if I still wanted to come. We hustled to the hotel that Chen’s host mom manages and made it in time to eat cake and tell Chen happy birthday. I still had fun because I got to hang out with my school friends and my exchange friends, even if it was only for a little bit.

IMG_3236 (1)Manu, the host mom of Chen, invited me to come paddleboarding with her and Chen and Eric after the party at Ponta Negra like we did the previous weekend, and I accepted. However, this is Brazil, so while Manu and Eric’s host mom probably knew of the plans, Eric had no idea what was going on. All of the exchange students, led by Veera and Eric, wanted to go do something together after the party, like going to the mall just to hang out. We don’t see each other all together that often, especially Veera, since she lives on the outskirts of the city and doesn’t go to the same school as the rest of us. We tried asking Manu what was going on, but she just blew us off, and then we asked her if there was any way we could hang out together at the mall, and then she proceeded to give us a talking to about how the Brazilian way of life works, because apparently we have no idea.

She told us that in Brazil, Sunday is family day, so no we could not go to the mall, and that we had to hang out with our families since we hadn’t seen them all week. She said that if we had wanted to hang out, we should have done it on Saturday, but today was Sunday, and that she had plans with her family, and that Eric and Claire were coming along too. While I got her point, I thought that she was very judgmental of us, since all of us see our families all the time. I spent all day Saturday hanging out with Virna, as well as Sunday morning, and how was I spending time with my family if I was going to Ponta Negra with Manu? Veera’s host parents apparently do not work, so she spends all of her free time with her family. The other exchange students had similar reactions, but we decided not to push it.

It ended with Eric, Chen, and I going paddleboarding in Ponta Negra. After we went paddleboarding, we stopped by Haven’s house. I have no idea why. Again, this is Brazil. What I do is get in the car and just accept everything that comes. If you think one thing is going to happen, it probably will, along with a few other things. Manu had a talk with Haven and his host parents about I’m not sure what, while Chen and Eric and I went and messed around with a basketball and kicked a soccer ball around. We had fun, but it was eight pm and we were all starving and the only real thing the three of us wanted to do was eat and sleep, after a full day of swimming in the ocean and parties, etc.

I am glad I’m not the only person who wants to pass out from exhaustion after these packed days, since Chen and Eric were just as dead as I was. I don’t know how Brazilians do it. Virna is very suited for my personality since she goes to bed at 9:30 or 10 every night and doesn’t drag me around to people’s houses at 8 without making sure I have eaten.

Finally, Chen, Eric and I made the executive decision that we were just going back to the house even though they had kicked us out, and we are happy we did because that’s when the pizza arrived. After we ate, we played video games and hung out some more (this time with Haven) while Manu talked with Haven’s host parents. We were so tired that we barely talked and hanging out meant us mostly sitting together staring into space.

I got home at around ten and just went to bed immediately. It was a fun day, but an exhausting day.

Exchanging host flags at the Rotary Club of Natal Tirol (not my real club).

Exchanging host flags at the Rotary Club of Natal Tirol (not my real club).

On Monday, I went to my first Rotary meeting. There has been some confusion as to which club I’m in. On my guarantee form, it says I am in Rotary Club of Natal. I told that to my fellow exchangers, and they all said that there is no such thing, and that there are only four Rotary clubs in Natal. Virna told me I was in Rotary Club de Natal do Sul, but when I went to my first meeting last week, it was Rotary Club of Natal Tirol. I gave the flag of Rotary Club of Aurora to the club’s president, Daladiana. And then Virna told me that she figured out that my real club is Rotary Club of Natal, the one that the other exchange students thought didn’t exist. Shows you how much they know, since there are actually seven clubs in the city, not four. I think I will be going to one or two meetings a month. My club is very traditional and they meet at 12:30 every Monday and eat lunch and have their meeting. I don’t know what they talked about, since it was too fast. The only interesting thing is that you are presented to the club president and exchange club flags. Luckily, I had more than one flag to give from Rotary Club of Aurora. They also gave me my allowance, which is R$200 a month. Thank you, Rotary!

Virna went to Recife on Tuesday morning for work, so I spent Tuesday night with Dona Fatima at the apartment.

IMG_3294Wednesday at school was a fun day since the students in my class threw a surprise going away party for our history teacher, who is changing schools. Everyone (except the exchange students who missed the memo) brought food and drinks cheered when he walked into the class. The entire class was spent taking selfies and eating and talking. The history teacher talked to the class too and there were girls crying (no boys cried, because they are too manly and cannot be degraded to such a position) and then everyone gave the teacher a huge group hug. I kind of felt like I was intruding since everyone was very sad to see him go, when I’ve only known this guy for a week and a half and have only spoken a few words with him, and yet the girls around me were sobbing. At least the food was good.

Entire class selfie.

Entire class selfie.

I spent Wednesday night at Jeanne’s house. Jeanne is the girl from France. Jeanne lives on the other side of the city but she still comes to Henrique Castriciano for school. Jeanne’s family is really nice. Their daughter is in Golden, Colorado, USA for her Rotary youth exchange.

While I really didn’t enjoy it that Virna was gone, I think that this is one of the best things that has happened to me this far since I was forced to speak in only Portuguese, while when I’m with Virna I speak in Portuguese and then can lapse into English if I don’t know how to say something. Dona Fatima and Jeanne’s host parents don’t speak any English whatsoever, and this really threw me into the Portuguese gear. When Virna got back today, I just started speaking Portuguese with her, and I didn’t really think anything of it, but she nearly fell over and told me how happy she was that I’m actually speaking Portuguese! It’s not right, and really slow, and I have to stop for words and restart sentences since I realize I can’t finish the one I was speaking, but it’s still Portuguese and it’s a start! This is week three! Imagine week four!

In school, there are some people that don’t know how to speak English at all, and some people who speak amazing English. The people who speak English in my class have told me that they are going to stop speaking English to me since I need to learn how to speak Portuguese. My new favorite phrase is “please repeat slower.”

Outside of my class, people flock towards me so they can practice their English. They tell me about their visits to the States and are so happy to have someone to practice with. My hair is a very hot commodity, and people love to touch it. I don’t think that they think it’s really real until they stroke it and pull it and make sure that it’s actually attached to my head. A lot of people just have thirty second conversations before they leave, because they are too shy to say anything else. I have learned a thousand people’s names and forgotten all of them since I only had a thirty second meeting with most of the people that I meet. Eric was complaining to me about all of the attention today (he’s from Finland), but I’m happy to give out my name and have people touch my hair.

On that note, I swear that the entire city knows who all of the exchange students are. Either that, or my blonde hair and light skin are dead giveaways. Today Eric and Chen and I were waiting outside of the school gate for Eric’s mom to pick us up, when a guy on a motorcycle pulled up and said that we were exchange students so we needed to wait inside the school boundaries because who knows what will happen outside of the school grounds. While at least we are in the school grounds the school is still responsible for us. None of us had ever seen the guy in our lives before. Also, to be fair, I have blond hair and blue eyes, as does Eric, and Chen is Asian, so maybe that’s how he knew we don’t come from Brazil.

And speaking of people worrying about us being in danger, it’s kind of ridiculous and terrifying at the same time. Ridiculous because sometimes I think people worry too much. For example, I’ve stood in that same spot outside of the school gate every day after school waiting for Virna and have never been mugged/knifed/I don’t know what they are expecting. The school is next to a police station. Terrifying because the constant warnings about Natal being a very dangerous place and that we can’t leave the house alone, etc. have gotten into all of our psyches and freaked us out a little, since if everyone says it, then it must be true. Some days I walk to school with Lana, one of Virna’s cousins that lives in the apartment next door, and on the way there we take one road, and on the way home we take a different road because the first road is dangerous at that time of day. Lana walks everywhere, so I believe her.

I think all of us, but especially Chiara and Eric and Jeanne who have been here for two months, are going a little stir crazy since they can’t just leave their apartments when their families aren’t home. This is a very different lifestyle than we are all used to since in our home countries, most of us could either walk everywhere or had a driver’s license and could go places without our parents worrying that we would be involved in some sort of street violence. Our neighborhoods at home are safe to walk in or we live in small towns where nobody drives. In the outbound orientation, I was warned that we probably wouldn’t have as much freedom as we are used to, but I didn’t realize how true it is. There is public transportation here, but we aren’t allowed to use it until we have been here for three months and know more of the language, so we are driven everywhere.

I was also warned that I would probably pick up weight since the food would be really good. So far, my pants have only gotten bigger. I think the food is fine, but it’s really boring and bland. There is absolutely no spicy food. Every meal involves some variation of rice and beans. I crave spicy food so much. Last night I had a dream about some nice spicy curry. I woke up so disappointed. Tabasco just made it to Brazil, and it is sooo exotic, you have no idea.

The only other thing to report is that I have an ear infection. I think it is from swimming in the ocean, because the last time I had an ear infection I lived in Mexico two blocks away from the beach. I’m now on meds, and went to a doctor to get diagnosed and the prescription. The doctor is apparently a friend of Virna’s, so the visit was free. I think it would have been nearly so regardless, since most of healthcare in Brazil is free. The medication was a total of R$30, or $8 USD. Lovely country. I need to ask about insulin because I’m sure it’s cheaper here and that way my parents don’t have to ship me more.

Thanks for reading!


IMG_3001Warning: This post is very stream of consciousness since I was mostly unloading, so I apologize if it’s confusing at all.

Written yesterday (Sep. 15), posted today (Sep. 16)

So much happens in one day that it feels like I’ve been here for a month, not a week. I can’t believe that I’ve been here for a week.


Right now Haven, the student from California, is missing, and that’s all I can think about. We are all in a Whatsapp group together and all of the exchange students (minus Haven) are FREAKING THE F OUT.

Natal can be very dangerous in some parts and nobody has any idea where he is. He was supposed to meet his host mom at the mall by the McDonald’s but he wasn’t there and now the mall security and police are involved as well as every single person in the city affiliated with Rotary. We are hoping his phone is just out of battery and that he’s waiting in the mall somewhere (unlikely since the place has been searched all over) but he’s gone. Poof. Right now everyone (on the student side of this, at least) is thinking of worse case scenarios, and our parents are too (we are sure at least) but they are telling us that he will be fine to calm us down. It’s quite scary since Haven doesn’t speak Portuguese and anything could have happened.

UPDATE: Haven is online and texting us! He’s alive! His exact words are: “Long story ill explain later face to face”.

Thanks bro.

Oh, wait, he just told us his phone died and he waited at McDonald’s for like 3 hours and then walked to Chen’s house and asked the guard there for a charger so he could call his host mom. That’s the story. I’ll bully more out of him at school tomorrow.


Okay, freak out (for now, anyway) done.

Exchange student selfie when hanging out at the mall.

Exchange student selfie when hanging out at the mall.


Even though about four billion things have happened over the past few days I’m going to talk about my Portuguese class and the stupid Italian boy.

Today was my second day of Portuguese class. As I’ve stated before, there are other exchange students from a different program than Rotary that go to this class too. This includes an Italian boy. I have a ton of very bad names to call said Italian boy, but I’m not going to write them here since I don’t know who’s going to be reading this, like maybe a future employer. Therefore, reader, please insert a lot of curse words here for Stupid-Italian-Boy-That-Makes-Me-Mad-And-Needs-To-Grow-Up.

SIB (or Stupid Italian Boy) for short.

SIB thinks it is funny (and quite possibly flirtatious and amazing and that all the girls will marry him and ride off into the sunset with him) by being the most annoying guy in the room. He picked on all the girls when they first arrived but I am new so I am fresh meat. He pulls your hair and pokes you and touches you and gets in your face and IS SOOOOO ANNOYING (caps lock and extra o’s for emphasis, folks, besides, I’m pissed off so give me some slack). The Brazilian boys are annoying since they are constantly asking, “Do you have a boyfriend? Why don’t you have a boyfriend? You are so pretty. Do you want a boyfriend? I can be your boyfriend.” I am so thankful to be in Rotary where one of the rules is no dating (even though Brazil doesn’t care) because I have such a great excuse when in reality, I couldn’t care less at this point about not having a boyfriend and my relationship status. I am more concerned about making friends and learning Portuguese. But SIB is even more annoying than all of them. He is a major jerk and doesn’t know how to keep his hands to himself.

SIB was filling some water bottles up for some people, including me, and then he wouldn’t give me my filled water bottle back and was only playing with it and hiding it behind his back, etc. This can be amusing for like twenty seconds, like any normal person will joke, but he proceeded with this game for about five minutes until the teacher finally noticed and yelled at him (props for the powers of observation, there. I’m in a pretty sarcastic mood right now.) During this whole show I just stopped paying attention to him. He finally stopped and just dropped my water bottle on the floor. Whatever.

The teacher left the room to grab some copies and asked me to erase the board, and I was doing so, and SIB sneaked up next to me and screamed in my ear. Needless to say, I was not amused. More like scared out of my wits. He, naturally, thought it was the most hilarious thing to ever happen on this planet.

Then he started messing with me by scribbling on the board and telling me to erase it. I was so done at this point and handed the eraser to him. He wouldn’t take it. I handed it to him again. He gave it back. Then he stepped towards me with the pen extended like he was going to write on me and I shoved the eraser into his white shirt. It was a lovely moment just for his look of shock (and my shock too, since I honestly wasn’t expecting myself to do that). There was dead silence in the class, and then SIB threw the eraser across the room and started screaming at me in Portuguese and Italian. I just shrugged and sat in my seat. I was so mad. He was screaming at me saying that I needed to pay for his shirt and what was I thinking and I was such a jerk (and I only understood this after the fact when some people told me what he was saying) and I just told him point blank, “I don’t understand but you were being a jerk.”

The whole touching, talking, pulling hair, screaming in the ear thing comes to mind.

He stormed over to my desk and ripped out the first page of my notebook where I had some notes and ripped it up and threw it in the trash and screamed at me some more and told me that he wasn’t going to get me anymore water and then sat in his desk and glared at me for the rest of the class.

It was such an immature reaction. I have to admit that my reaction was probably immature too, but at some point saying no isn’t enough. And I don’t think anyone has said no to SIB before. I was so high on adrenaline for the rest of the class.

All the other girls told me that he was just joking and playing around with me, but Chiara, my friend from Germany, told me that he deserved it and I was very grateful to her for taking my side.


Written September 16, 2015

Today Haven told me the story about what happened to him. So he was told to wait for his mother at the McDonalds at the mall and he did. His phone was dead, so he couldn’t check the time, but he thinks he was there for three hours since he read two hundred pages of his book and that would take him three hours. (I think he’s an idiot.) Then he left the mall and walked to Chen’s house which was pretty close by but he didn’t know which house Chen lived in and was walking up and down the streets of Chen’s neighborhood before he finally asked a guard if they had a charger for his cellphone, which they did. He called his host mom, and texted the rest of us saying he was alive. Seriously, everyone involved in every exchange program in the city, my school class, the police, and the mall security was looking for him.

He told me he thinks he made the right choice by leaving to go to Chen’s house. I think he’s an idiot for not staying in one place (especially since he didn’t know which house Chen lived in) and not asking the four thousand people in the mall or going to one of the many cell phone stores and asking to charge his phone there so he could call his mom. When I was a kid, my parents told me to stay in one place. Virna told me she thought he was being stupid too. Actually, everyone does, but Haven just blows us off when we tell him that. Maybe he’ll know better next time.


At the beach with Chen

At the beach with Chen

So, Sunday was a busy day. The host mom of Chen took me and Chen and Eric and Haven to Ponta Negra beach where we paddle boarded and had an amazing time. Then we went to a Rotary function which was this band of teenagers playing songs that was apparently started a few years ago through a Rotary club, which is why we went. It was like a fundraiser for the band I think. I was drafted to play clarinet, but I came across mostly as an idiot because the music was all handwritten and I got lost so many times. Also, a lot of it was in the high register and my chops were not up to snuff. They were good musicians, aside from being horribly out of tune.

Picture of Rotary exchange students and the band.

Picture of Rotary exchange students and the band.

After we played with the band and ate, some students kept playing and most of them got up and danced. We danced too! It was a lot of fun and we mostly looked like idiots trying to learn how to samba (super super hard) and floro (again, spelling most likely wrong). It was cool to see that so many young people know the traditional dances of their country and dance them for fun.

After the dance, we took a million selfies with the kids and exchanged Whatsapp (a free international texting service) numbers with what seemed like everyone and then we left to go take a tour of the biggest cashew tree in the world. It was pretty cool since it felt like we were in a forest but it was actually one organism. Mostly we had fun hanging out with each other.

Largest cashew tree in the world (and exchange students trying to eat a plastic fruit)

Largest cashew tree in the world (and exchange students trying to eat a plastic fruit)

Then we parted ways, and me, Chen, and Eric went back to Ponta Negra to swim and paddle board some more, but Pierre came along for the ride this time.

The beach is so beautiful and paddle boarding is so peaceful (if there isn’t that much wind, at least. The first time it was windy so you had to mostly concentrate on not falling off your board, even though I did maybe five or more times. The second time it was high tide and the waves were very small.) You can see the whole city from Ponta Negra and the ocean and it was beautiful to watch the sun set behind the city and float on the water. I felt like I was on top of the world in that moment.

That’s all I have for now! I’m having an amazing time so far and I can’t wait to see what is in my future. I’m very happy. I know it’s inevitable that I will have a slump period, but whenever that is, it is not today.

Paddle boarding! I'm in there somewhere, but this is mostly people I don't know

Paddle boarding! I’m in there somewhere, but this is mostly people I don’t know

Sleep and Caffeine Make the World Go Round


Welcoming committee from when I first arrived.

Welcoming committee from when I first arrived.

It’s been less than a week and yet it feels like I’ve been here forever.

On Tuesday I was supposed to have my first day of Portuguese school, but the class was canceled, unbeknownst to me and Virna. Portuguese school takes place at the public school and is free. But Virna and I showed up and were told that the class had been canceled. The teacher who told us invited me to her English class, and I said yes, since I was thinking of Abi and her thing was to always say yes. The class was for basically anybody who wanted to learn English.

As far as I could tell, people in that class ranged from eighteen to forty years of age. They were doing presentations on their life. I sat through several presentations of terrible English. All I really wanted to do was leave since I had no idea who any of these people were and was waaaay outside of my comfort zone. I was asked several times if I had a boyfriend or wanted a boyfriend. I said no to the first and shrugged uncomfortably to the second. Finally the class was over, but Virna wouldn’t be coming to pick me up for another thirty minutes. The teacher showed me into an office where I watched about half of a super dramatic soap opera. I have no idea what they were saying in it, but I do know that some girl liked this guy and they all live in a super fancy house and these two girls were fighting and it was really insulting to the other if they pulled all of the covers off a bed. Yup.

After my host mom came to get me, we went to buy the tee shirt that is my uniform for Portuguese class. It is simply a polo shirt with the school logo. I’ll take a picture of it eventually.

Then, on Wednesday, was my first day of school! I was super nervous because all I was imagining were basically horror stories. When I was in eighth grade and lived in Mexico for the year, my whole class laughed at me on the first day of school because a kid pulled a joke on me since I didn’t speak Spanish. I also arrived an hour late since I was in the wrong time zone. I also have heard stories from other exchange students about their terrible first days of school. People would say that they would come home and cry and cry and cry. Needless to say, I was braced for the worst. It could not have been more of the opposite.

Another view of Natal.

Another view of Natal.

Since I had already been introduced to my class the day before, everyone already knew who I was and invited me to sit next to them. I was kind of an instant celebrity. They all love love love the United States even if they have never been and would tell me all about it. They watch American TV shows and listen to American music. A lot of them speak decent English and nearly fell over in gratitude when I told them that they were great at English. Of course, some of them couldn’t speak a word of English.

A quick note here: Due to my Spanish, I understand A TON of Portuguese, especially if it is spoken slowly. But when I open my mouth Spanish tends to fall out, and people give me strange looks and tell me to speak in English.

Okay, so back to school. Many of my classmates don’t speak English, and then they talk to each other really quickly and have a conversation (in Portuguese) that tends to go along these lines:

STUDENT: Does she speak Portuguese? Where is she from?

OTHER STUDENT: No. She speaks English. She’s from the United States.

FIRST STUDENT: Do you speak English?

OTHER STUDENT: A little, but not very well.

FIRST STUDENT: Ask her what her name is!

OTHER STUDENT: No, you ask!

And at this point, all I want to say is, “I understand everything you are saying, except I don’t know how to tell you that in Portuguese. So I’m going to sit here and pretend like I have no idea what’s going on.”

Hey guys, guess what? Meu nome e Claire.

I’ve listened to that conversation maybe fifteen times, so I really really really can understand it in Portuguese.

I feel like my class is so welcoming and kind. They want to know everything about me. I think America could learn a thing or two about Brazilian hospitality. Being the new kid at an American high school is nerve wracking and terrible because you are never sure if anyone is going to say hi to you. I remember this from my freshmen year. And, of course, it’s over dramatized in American movies and TV. But here I have so many people trying to get my attention and asking me to sit next to them.

The break/lunch hour is at eleven, and then you can go and buy food or eat what you have brought. Virna gave me money to buy food. Because I am in the school with most of the other exchange students, they showed me the ropes and told me how to order. Basically, you tell the cashier what you want and pay, and they give you a receipt. You take the receipt to a different person who gives you what you ordered. This is the only fun part about school since you can actually talk to people and make friends.

I have quickly found out that the exchange students at my school are not expected to do classwork or homework or take tests or quizzes. We are to concentrate all of our energy on learning Portuguese. This makes class sooooooooo boring. We all bring books or journals or are on our phones and nobody says ANYTHING since we are just those people who aren’t actually here for a grade. And even if we wanted to do the work, so far all of the teachers have simply lectured and I can’t follow what they are saying and take notes and pretend like I’m a part of the class. So I’ve doodled and journaled and read the single book that I brought. Also, since I am not the only exchange student in my class, I am not quite as popular as I’ve heard other exchange students in Brazil are. But they are like kings and queens because they are usually the only exchange student in their school. I’m okay with this because I like seeing my exchange buddies every day. Sadly, Pierre and Veera do not go to my school, but I will see them a lot anyways!

This is a rough schedule of my day:

Wake up at 6 and eat breakfast. School is from 7:30 to 1:15. Come home and eat lunch with Virna. Take a nap (i.e. pass out from exhaustion and culture shock. I swear Virna thinks that the only thing I do is sleep. I tried to tell her that I’m simply tired because everything is new and different and therefore exhausting, but she told me maybe next semester I can go to classes later. When I get better at Portuguese I’ll try to explain again.) Do whatever activity Virna has planned for the night. Pass out for bed. Repeat.

Yesterday, I finally had Portuguese class. It was kind of a cultural experience more than anything else. We learned about vowels, which was good, because it helps to have some basis of how to pronounce things, but the teacher also put on music and danced samba and lectured us that they don’t really move their upper body. She also taught what the word for nickname was. I had fun just because it was so different than what I was expecting, and I met a lot of new people. Other than the exchange students in Rotary, there were some exchange students from a different program. Two Italians, a Spanish girl, a girl from Thailand, another girl from Germany, another guy from Belgium, and a girl from Turkey. They were just loud and happy and I had fun.

Dona Fatima cooking.

Dona Fatima cooking.

Here’s something interesting. Virna has a person named Dona Fatima (unsure of spelling here) come around three times a week. She cleans and makes breakfast and lunch and does the laundry and probably more that I am unsure of. This is pretty cool, but I’m totally unsure of the relationship with the two people here. Dona Fatima has a daughter named Eduarda who is currently in Finland with Rotary. She is Virna’s god daughter and stays with her during the week. Soooo I totally don’t understand at all the relationship. I’ll ask at some point.

When Dona Fatima isn’t cooking, Virna takes me to various restaurants. They follow the same pattern of the restaurant I described earlier; you get a card and they weigh your food (I even think you pay for the weight of the plate, but food is so cheap it doesn’t matter) and you pay for everything at the end. Virna hasn’t cooked at all so far. Sometimes we have leftovers. I’m not sure if this is a regular thing or if it’s just for now while I’m still settling in.



I guess the only other thing to report is that I am pretty scared of Virna’s dog. She has two dogs, a Chihuahua and a poodle. The poodle is really old and is blind and literally has to be dragged around everywhere. He actually makes me pretty depressed since I think in America we would have put him down by now. Poor thing. I’m not sure how to spell his name but it sounds like Cafoo. Now, Zeca is the Chihuahua. Sometimes he is really really nice and you can pet him and hold him, but a few days ago he just went wild and bit my foot. It didn’t break the skin or anything but it scared me and I put antibiotic cream on it just in case. Apparently he thinks that he needs to protect Virna from me. So now I am really careful when I am around him because I am never sure what mood he’s going to be in. Also, when Virna’s boyfriend Leonardo comes around, he’s really mean to Virna because Leonardo is now the person to be protected.

My dog bites a few days later.

My dog bite a few days later.



Someone asked me about the pronunciation of Natal.

Na: It’s like “Nah, I’m not hungry.” Or “Not” without the “t”.

Tal: “Tall.” As in not short.

TAL THE NATIVE WAY: “Tow” except “ow” as in my foot hurts.


I was informed today that skin cancer is more prevalent in Natal than any other place in the world because of an atmospheric phenomenon that makes it closer to space (or something?) so there are more sun rays that hit this part of the world than anywhere else. I will be googling this ASAP as well as purchasing sunscreen and a hat tomorrow.


I go to a private school that Virna pays for, not Rotary. I asked her about this but she didn’t seem to think anything of it. She told me that the public school is really really good but there are drugs and things there so Rotary doesn’t want the exchange students to go to that school. I’m still a little bit confused about the whole thing, as are my fellow exchange students.


Virna drinks coffee at every single meal, and then some. The coffee here is really strong and they only drink small cups of it. I had a cup and was buzzed on caffeine for like three hours after and that hasn’t happened to me in a long time ever since I started drinking coffee more regularly. I just thought I would comment.


Thoughts on race: Last year I took Socratic Seminar and one of my assignments was to write a twenty page research paper. I wanted to do something about Brazil, so I researched race relations and Brazil. It was super interesting, and the short story is that Brazil likes to pretend that racism is not a big deal, when in fact it is very prevalent. The government never officially discriminated against blacks, and because of this, Afro-Brazilians never formed a cohesive alliance to create social change like Martin Luther King Jr. did. If you take a survey on a Brazilian street and interview fifty different people who look exactly the same (to you) they will all (most likely) give you different names for what race they are. Personally, I think that this in particular is fascinating. Anyways, I think (based on my extremely limited knowledge of Natal) that I am in a city that has mostly lighter skin. I wouldn’t call them white, but they aren’t black. Today, the philosophy teacher was black, and the first thing someone said to me, and this was a guy who had never spoken in English to me before since he was too shy, was that the teacher is black. I wasn’t able to ask if that made the teacher inferior, but I got the feeling that that’s what he meant. And then when I got home from school today, Virna’s boyfriend told me that Brazil is not like the United States because they don’t have as many issues with racism as the United States does. Just some food for thought.


I knew this already, but saying thank you can go a thousand miles. I’ve noticed that Brazilians don’t seem to thank their wait staff, etc. and I have been since you should always say thank you and they seem super surprised and grateful.


Traffic. I can’t even describe it it’s so crazy. Virna consistently drives in the direct middle of two lanes. Motorcycles weave in and out. Everyone seems to follow a pattern of chaos that they all know. Yet I haven’t seen people crashing into each other right and left.


They never have spicy food. They don’t like it. I like the food, but I’m kind of dying that it isn’t spicy at all. I miss my spicy food. I have a tiny bottle of tajin that I brought but I’m saving it for a special occasion.


Virna bought me five different kinds of mangoes to try. They smell so good! I’m going to start on them tomorrow. I love mangoes and I’m so excited about this!


Living the farm life with Virna

Living the farm life with Virna

Two parrots live in the apartment downstairs and are constantly making parrot sounds. It’s pretty cool.


I have yet to see a can of Diet Coke here, or even Pepsi, but Coke Zero is quite prevalent. In my opinion Coke Zero is better than Diet Coke so I’m completely fine with this.


Well, thanks for reading my essay! I’ll update again at some point!

New Friends and a New School

Hello, everyone! So far so good. Soon I’m going to my very first day of Portuguese school, so I’ll keep this short.

Yesterday, I woke up late, and then I had a little breakfast with Virna. So far, I am eating a lot of fruit, especially papaya (mamão). All the fruit is so good here since it is fresh! It reminds me of Mexico, except no Mangos yet (sad face – hi Paige!).

Last night was the birthday party of one of the other Rotary inbounds. Her name is Veera and she is from Finland (not French, like me and Virna thought). I met all of the other Rotary Inbounds at the party, and we are a sum total of eight.

Me – America

Haven – America (California)

Veera – Finland

Eric – Finland

Jeanne – France

Pierre – Belgium

Chen – Taiwan

Chiara – Germany

It seems like we are all best friends already and I have known them for only one day. We ate and talked and laughed and walked around together. We walked around the neighborhood together and picked coconuts off of the trees and broke them open and drank the water and ate the meat. We all gave Veera presents and she was very emotional because we have only known each other for a short time, but still we gave her gifts.

English is the common language between all of us, and so we will be speaking English together until we all speak enough Portuguese to get by. They all speak more Portuguese than I do since most of them have been here for a month already while I arrived on Sunday. I also felt kind of weird since everyone there knew all about American politics and about the country etc. while I knew almost nothing about their countries. Veera asked me what I was going to do if Trump got elected. They all don’t want Trump to be the president as much as I do. I will see them again today at Portuguese school!

Today, I went to my school with Virna to complete my enrollment. I start tomorrow. I met my class and I am with Chen and Jeanne which I am very happy about. I felt like I met every single person on the campus. The dean, a lot of teachers, and more more more. My school is called Henrique Castriciano. On my guarantee form, it says my school is Escola Domestica do Natal, and when I told the other inbounds that last night they told me to ask my host mom if I could go to Henrique Castriciano because Escola Domestica is an all girls’ school and is very traditional. However, it shares a campus with Henrique Castriciano. I asked Virna about it, and she said that it only says on my guarantee form that I’m going to Escola Domestic for some weird reason that I am unsure of, but in reality I’m going to Henrique Castriciano. That makes me very happy!



Destination, Departure, and Arrival


Family selfie in DIA with a blurry Paige

Family selfie in DIA with a blurry Paige

Written Saturday, September 5, 2015

Well, I’m off! I left Denver at 9:46am on September 9. Today. I knew my departure would be very rapid between me getting my visa and leaving the country, but I was unable to grasp that concept until it became a reality.

I’ve been working at an insurance company as a temp thanks to one of my neighbors, since I needed something to occupy my time, but it was pretty boring work, so I had a lot of time to get depressed about not having my visa and check my email constantly hoping that it would appear.

I got home from work on Thursday, September 3 a little early since I’d had a high blood sugar all day and all I wanted to do was sleep and ignore everything for a while. I was in a pretty black mood and was even thinking something along the lines of, “What if my application for my visa is rejected? What am I going to do then? Well, everyone has already started college and I’ve already deferred admission so I wouldn’t be able to go to school in place of Brazil. Well, I could just buy a plane ticket and backpack around places. I could work. Oh, I’m never leaving.” Etc. Etc. Etc. But then almost right as I got home, I got a call from the travel agency saying that they had my visa and they would overnight it to me and the earliest I could leave was Saturday.

Today is Saturday, and I have left.

I spent forever thinking about leaving, and now I am gone. I spent a few days packing and generally freaking out and not sleeping at all at night.

I don’t feel sad. I don’t really feel excited, or even nervous. I guess I am just feeling jittery. Like something big is coming ahead. Something big is coming my way.

Lydia, one of the other girls going to Brazil from d.5450 was on my plane from Denver to Miami, and this is where we part. She goes straight to Belo Horizonte. I go to Sao Paulo, and then Natal. We are both waiting for our planes. Her plane leaves at midnight, and I leave around ten. So we have a few hours together yet. We are in our blazers and people are giving us second glances but haven’t said anything to us. Unfortunately, we didn’t sit together on the flight from Denver to Miami. That flight was kind of annoying for me since I sat in front of this guy and girl who flirted and talked with each other really loudly the entire flight. I had to put in my headphones even though I didn’t want to listen to music the entire time just so I could drown them out.

So, these are my last few hours in America! Now I am excited! I have a while to wait, and a long flight ahead, but as Nancy said, what’s a few more hours if I’ve been waiting months?


Well, guys, I am in Brazil now. I am writing this form the table of my apartment. My host mom is sitting with me doing some work.

Claire, Amy, and Lydia. Off to Brazil!

Claire, Amy, and Lydia. Off to Brazil!

In the Miami airport, Lydia and I found another girl with a blazer on whose name is Amy. Amy was on my flight from Miami to Sao Paulo with me, but her ending destination was a little outside of Sao Paulo, while I had another flight to catch. I slept a little on the flight, but mostly not at all. The thing I was the most nervous about for the whole trip was going to Sao Paulo and checking in to get my ticket and collecting my bags so they could be checked under the plane. I was really happy Amy was there with me while we got our bags and figured out how the carts work (it turns out you have to push down on the handles or the wheels don’t move). She was really nervous about meeting her host family for the first time while I was really nervous about navigating the airport.

We parted while I headed over to Domestic Connections and found the desk and checked in. I gave the man my passport and my flight number and he got me a ticket and took one of my bags. A different man told me in broken English that my other bag was “special” and I needed to take it to an open door that behind of a lot of ropes blocking it off and a big sign that said DO NOT ENTER. So I stood there for a while and stared at the door, but the man noticed that I hadn’t done anything, and told me the same thing again, so I made my way over to the door that was marked DO NOT ENTER, and there were two men who checked the tag on my bag and took it. So I was really confused and unsure if my bags were going to end up in the same place or not. It worked out but it was just another level of what the heck is going on here to add to my day.

Observations about Portuguese: Like Spanish, it is spoken very fast. I have no idea what anyone is saying when it is spoken really fast. When it is spoken slower, I can catch words and phrases because a lot of it sounds like Spanish.

I found my gate and went through Security and sat there for two hours trying not to fall asleep since I was in an unfamiliar airport in an unfamiliar country and I didn’t want to miss the flight anyways.

IMG_2932I didn’t miss the flight. I had a huge ball of anxiety in the beginning of the flight, but I was asleep before it took off.

When I finally got to Natal, both of my bags were there and my host mom wasn’t. My flight was maybe thirty minutes early so I just stood there for a long time waiting. A woman came up to me and asked me if I needed help. She saw my blazer and knew I was from America. She offered to call my host mom for me and was just putting her phone number in my phone so I could call her if nobody showed up for me when three people came to me and called me by name. I had no idea who they were, but they knew my name so I figured, hey, maybe it’s just a part of the welcoming party, and the lady left. They also mentioned my mom’s name: Virna. But they didn’t speak English at all. I’m still unsure of their function within/without Rotary, etc. But I was happy to have someone who knew who I was and why I was there. They drafted a woman, asking her if she spoke English, and she didn’t but she spoke German. I am also unsure of her relation, because it seemed like they knew her, but I’m just not sure. Finally, Virna showed up! And she speaks pretty broken English, but enough to get by. There was another lady who spoke perfect English and she was telling me who was who, but I must say I’ve completely forgotten. I was so overwhelmed. I’m not sure of her connection to Rotary also.

I went with Virna, Virna’s sister, and Virna’s nephew and the nephew’s girlfriend to drop my things at the house and then we would go eat and then I could sleep. The nephew spoke pretty good English, and he has lived in Atlanta before. He was telling me that most Brazilians like the Patriots (as in American Football) because Tom Brady is married to a Brazilian. I don’t like the Patriots, but I might have to conform, as much as it pains me. And I’ve also brought Broncos pennants as host gifts, ha!

Virna just moved to a new apartment, so it is not as close to the beach as I thought it was. It is in the center of the city, and everyone told me that this is where everything happens, so I think it works out one way or the other. Besides, there are busses for that kind of thing. We dropped my bags off, and then me and Virna and Virna’s sister went to a restaurant so I could get something to eat since I was absolutely starving. We were limited to one choice of restaurant since apparently all of the restaurants close at three and then open again at six, and it was three thirty. The restaurant was pretty interesting, but I’m only thinking that now since I was too tired to care at the time. You get a card as you go in, and then you get your food (kind of buffet style), and you take it to a cash register where they weigh the food and then swipe your card. When you are finished eating you take your card to a different cash register where you pay for everything that you ate at once. Neat system.

Then we dropped Virna’s sister off at her apartment and then went to Virna’s (and now my!) apartment, and I proceeded to take a three hour nap. After I woke up, we had some dinner and then Virna invited over her two cousins that are about my age and their mom who live next door. I will be going to school with one of the girls. I just kind of sat there and listened and wished I could go to bed since I was still really tired. After a while they left and I started to unpack and then I went to bed.

Well, here I am! Everything is exhausting because I have to make a decision over everything and really think about it. It is really hot and humid, but with a breeze I think it is really quite pleasant. But this is winter, so it’s only going to get hotter.

Some other random observations:

So far Virna has made me a lot of juice, but the concentrate has no sugar, and then you add sugar to your glass to taste. I like this system since I can control the carbs I am drinking.

Today is Independence Day so there is no school/work. I enroll in school tomorrow and start on Wednesday.

Don’t drink the tap water. It’s like Mexico, folks.

Drink a lot of water because it’s really hot.

I will be going to Portuguese school on Tuesdays and Thursdays after my regular school with all of the other exchange students in the city.

There are only 8 exchange students with Rotary here in Natal (including me) and 10 other exchange students that aren’t with Rotary. I haven’t met any of them yet but I can’t wait to.

Also, I’m going to a French girl’s birthday party today! She is with Rotary and I have never met her before, but I’m excited to start meeting everyone.

Well, that’s all for now! I’ll update more whenever I get up to it.

My first look at Natal. Pretty bad pic, but I'll get a better one at some point.

My first look at Natal. Pretty bad pic, but I’ll get a better one at some point.

I Might Actually Leave The Country


Inbounds, outbounds, and rebounds to Brazil

Inbounds, outbounds, and rebounds to Brazil

On Sunday, I went to a barbecue hosted by my sponsor Rotary district: 5450. It was for all newly inbound students (the people for the other districts around the world that are living in Colorado for their exchange year), their host families, outbound students (people like me from d.5450 going to different parts of the world for their exchange year), and rebound students (people who are also from d.5450 but they went on their exchange in previous years and have returned).

I was talking about going to this barbecue with my mother and she offered to go with me. I was kind of nervous. I wouldn’t really know anyone, except for Rotarians and one other outbound student beside me. So I was happy that Mom was going to come with me. But then I realized that I was about to leave to a country that I know next to nothing about without my mother to hold my hand. So I told Mom that I was perfectly fine and I would go to the barbecue alone.

I put on what I’m starting to call my “Brazilian face” and pulled up to the park and went up to the first ground of people I was and introduced myself.

It turns out that this was the first time all the inbounds had met each other, too, so I wasn’t the only awkward person who was unsure of what to do and talk to.

I have to say, I am soooo happy I went to this barbecue. I met so many nice people, including three girls from Brazil. I already knew two of them virtually, but I didn’t know that until I got there and started talking to them. One of them, Mary, is from Natal, the city I am going to once I get my visa. I also met a boy who went to Brazil last year – one of the rebounds. Sydney was also there. She is one of the three of us girls from Colorado d.5450 going to Brazil still waiting for her visa.

I asked the Brazilians what I should bring with me to Brazil. What item was so simple that they all know what it is but I have no idea? It turns out the answer is… wait for it… Mac n’ Cheese!

I’m not kidding. Like, Kraft Mac n’ Cheese. Now I am the proud owner of two five packs of Kraft Mac n’ Cheese that have been carefully placed in my suitcase, ready for the trip to Brazil.

I also spoke to Kimberly, a bigwig in Rotary, during the bbq, and she told me that the girl going to Turkey from d.5450 received her visa and was out of the country within twenty four hours. The kids exchanging in Turkey were having just as much trouble getting their visas as the kids exchanging in Brazil. And now she’s there! Wow! So apparently I need to be packed and ready to go!

And that’s not even the best part! On Monday, Sydney texted me saying that she had just gotten an email from the travel agency telling her that she had been approved for her visa. The travel agency would overnight it to her, along with her passport, and she could leave to Brazil any time after Wednesday. She left yesterday! As in Thursday, August 27! YESTERDAY!

I submitted for my visa about a week after Sydney submitted for hers. I am very hopeful that I will get my visa early next week then. Fingers crossed.

Right now I have one suitcase packed, and one full of things that I need to put in an orderly fashion so I can close it when I receive word. Unpacked is about a week and a half’s worth of clothes that I can fit into a suitcase that can be carried on, so I don’t need to worry about packing it last minute. I am driving Paige, my sister, crazy, since our room is completely trashed. All of my winter clothes have been placed in boxes and put in storage because the next time I will need them is going to be in Ohio 2016. I’ve taken all of my posters off from the walls so Paige can use the wall since I’m moving out for five years except summer (for the foreseeable future, at least).

It seems like my adventure might actually be close to starting. I can’t wait!

Changed Paths

“Change is the law of life. And those who look only to the past or present are certain to miss the future.” – John F. Kennedy

October, 2010. I am thirteen years old.

October, 2010. I am thirteen years old.

I’ve been thinking a lot about change, recently, just because I’ve realized I’ve changed. I’ve grown up. I started this blog a little more than five years ago. My first post was on March 20, 2010, a lovely piece entitled “Hi.” The entire content was less than a paragraph. I look back on it and I smile, because I have changed since then. I am not the same person as I was on March 20, 2010. I was in seventh grade and thirteen years old. Now I am a recently graduated eighteen year old. I am a very different person than who I used to be.

When I started this blog, my entire life was centered on the daily ins and outs of living with type one diabetes. At this point in my life journey, I am interested in other things, too. You may or may not have noticed that my posts as of late have had almost nothing to do with diabetes. And yet the title of this blog is Diabetic Rockstar.

While I identify as a Diabetic Rockstar, this is not what I want to write about anymore. I’m not saying that I’m never going to write about diabetes again. I’m just trying to open myself to more avenues than simply the girl who takes on diabetes by storm and can laugh a little about it.

I still laugh about diabetes. I still spend hours upon hours of my day wondering about my blood sugar and counting carbohydrates. But I want to write about different things now.

When I was thirteen years old, I was completely focused on Tae-Kwon-Do, Harry Potter, diabetes, school, and middle school drama.

My eighteen year old self is focused on Harry Potter, exercising more than I do right now, exploring strange new worlds such as Brazil, travel, Brazil, Star Trek, writing a novel, diabetes, Brazil, Marvel Studios, gay rights, Brazil, voting, learning how to drink responsibly, Brazil, politics, fanfiction, Brazil, various different books, the idea that all grades are simply made up concepts, Brazil, etc. The list goes on and on.

September, 2014

September, 2014

I have grown up since I was thirteen years old. I guess the point that I’m trying to make here is that this blog is going to be changing from its original focus. At some point in the nearish future, I will be changing the title “Diabetic Rockstar” to something that encompasses a more worldly perspective. I don’t know exactly what I’m going to call my blog, but it’s not going to be “Diabetic Rockstar.” Because this Diabetic Rockstar is ready for some change.

“To improve is to change; to be perfect is to change often.” – Winston Churchill